Sundays

It's Sunday morning 9:51 AM. I'm rockin out to Confined by As I Lay Dying. I'm so bored...But yea this blog is about Upside. YAAAAAAA. No not the Starcraft channel. These people:







They are composed of rats, brats, litle girls, little boys, prey, Cool Girls, Jocky Guys, more rats, Sam, leaders, role models, pastor(finally haha), the awesome, baller, funny, formerly brother/fatherlike, m3 repping teacher, HONGSHIK, and of course:

THE REAL JOKER.
Yea Heath Ledger is an alright joker, but this man...he is THE REAL JOKER. He fux with you until you want to die or kill him but you never can. He is invincible and will forever joke the world until somehow he dies.
I haven't been going to church a lot for the past maybe year and a half and I just started to go back. This is my second week. There's been so much change since when I first started going in 7th or 8th grade. Like this building on gallows road.

Yes that building was awesome. I remember sleeping there either by myself or with friends and teachers. Good times playing 13 or risk until 5 am then waking up to the korean ministry practicing piano at 6. I can never forget the day Pastor Gene introduced the "GO CAMPAIGN". Whenever I think about it I lawlsroflcopterlmfaohmygod.
"We have introduced the Go Campaign, and I think the way Anne and I are going to do this is to go. I think God is calling us to literally go." LMFAO. Pastor Gene...literlly GO. how tiight.

Geez they dipped the fuck out..-_- I only saw him once after he dipped out.

What a sad day...I don't think most of the kids in Upside know about him since they're all new and everyone that knew him dipped out. But since he left I don't think Upsides been involved much. At ICF last Thursday or last last Thursday I forgot when, but the pastor talked about the last decade. Time magazine called it the "Decade of Hell" and basically talked about where the church was. The most memorable thing I heard him say was "Where was the Church?." Sort of seemed true. The church was in a lot of American history but I also don't think I've heard very much about the Church in the past decade or so. It might be because I've been oblivious to the news until now my tvs on CNN 24/7.
Hold on Sean Flickinger is here I shall resume my blog post whenever I come back.
sike im too tired now :\

The Master

Hello. I was doing poetry in school today and I thought that I'd write a free verse poem to see if I have what it takes to have people studying my words hehe. probably not but o well I'm bored so I wrote one anyways. :D its sort of depressing and emo so dont read it if you hate that stuff just X out of the webpage. ;)


The Master by Jae Cho

For a reason I don't know why
I gave myself up
To be a slave
My master calls on me many times a day
Although I hate him
And regret my decision
I have no choice but to do his will
He took away my sanity and ability to live freely
He cursed me with my dependence in him
When I run or he goes away
I get sick
Antsy
Angry
Irritated
Miserable
And inside there is chaos
I kick and scream to be with my master again
He has be binded with mental chains
Stronger than any material in the universe
I am enslaved by a cigarette.

I think I tell myself I'm going to start quitting like 2-3 times a month lol...Never works out. Nicotine is such a pain in the ass. Totally rapes your brain anally with a 10 foot wide cock. -_- If you don't smoke, don't start!!!! No matter how cool and gangster the smokers look!!!! Or if you have another reason its not good either. ;)

Spurgeonator

I'm bored so I'm writing again I guess. This thing sometimes is fun hehe. I am writing about myself yay. I have no idea how but this man came up into my head today while I was looking at my bookshelf full of gangster Nicholas Sparks and Chuck Palahniuk books. As I looked more down to where my Bibles were Whoop Hello Charles Spurgeon and John MacArthur. Just random images and a quote came to my head. o.O


Yea, thats not Andrew Carnegie. It sort of looks like him but its not. That man is Charles Spurgeon. I dont know if you guys know him but hes a British Preacher. Right now I think he's called the "Prince of Preachers". What a baller title...The Prince of Preachers. Thats basically all I know about the guy sadly and this quote that he preached or said I guess.

"Have you no wish for others to be saved? Then you're not saved yourself, be sure of that!"
— Charles Spurgeon

What a baller quote from a baller preacher with a baller title...This was the quote that came into my head. It was my quote. I memorized it, -not that hard to memorize- told myself this in my head everyday, every moment, and had it up on my computer and yea it was the best quote to me. I think it's still the most baller.
So yea I'm thinking back on my life and noticed half or a bit more of my high school days were dominated by church life. I went there every Friday and Sunday maybe 3 hours before service started. Sundays I'd set up chairs, Friday I would just come early and chill with Pastor Gene Kim. <---- That man is also very baller



I miss him a lot haha. I was told that Upside(LGMC Youth Group) wasn't that big or hmmm I don't know what word...............big or.....uhhh.....active??? I don't know ahaha. I just heard that PG(Pastor Gene) did a lot to make the youth group grow in size and in their love for God. I wouldn't really know though since I wasn't there in the beginning. At that time I first got cable tv and high speed internet so I was doing this:



and some of this:



and a whole lot of this:



hehe. One Friday night my mom made me go to church -_-. I was so furious. I'm 14 years old and my mom made me give up a night of those 3 things. zomg.

yea that happened before I went out. Geez it sucked. So I went to church and WOAH. Scary...all these people know each other and they're like 2 feet taller than me and everyones doing something and omg hawt older girls. I didn't know what to do except sit on a piano chair and stare blankly into the carpet. But I kept going as I was forced by my mom to go and these scary church people are the funniest people ever. They do weird ass activities and have the funniest jokes about the dumbest things ever.
So retreat time came around. Winter retreat ehhh I went I was forced by my mom. I had fun and everything. Big sleepover with funny people take a nap and play around during service fun bus ride go home play more games. :) Summer retreat I wasn't forced I wanted to go have another fun time yay! The pastor for the summer retreat was named Pastor Sam. I have no idea what his last name was I never asked or read the booklet thingys hhehe. On the second night I guess I was "saved". Pastor Sam preached about the verse Philippians 3:8.
"Yea doubtless, and I count all things but loss for the excellency of the knowledge of Christ Jesus my Lord: for whom I have suffered the loss of all things, and do count them but dung, that I may win Christ," -Philippians 3:8.
That was awesome. How Paul considered everything a "loss" then "dung" or crap, rubbish, shit compared to the "EXCELLENCY of the knowledge of Christ Jesus" his Lord. WOW...what a baller. He was soo in love with God that everything else to him was a loss, poop, nothing. I wish I had faith, zeal and love for God like Paul did. thats tiight.so yea id go to church participate, go to retreats, missions funfunfun. I miss it. I miss the people.

haha these rats are tiight
i totally forgot where i was going with this blog cuz I left to go to lifetime and just got back -_- whatever byebyes hahah maybe next time.